I often feel as though I am not enough, or I do not have enough. Enough for what? Enough to do my job (which sometimes seems like it encompasses endless duties), enough to help others, enough to just get out of bed before noon. This “lacking” attitude is always perceived as negative. Of course that doesn’t surprise me. The majority of my attitudes ARE negative. But I was thinking last night about how this attitude could be turned into something positive. If we are looking for more, isn’t that a good thing?
The world is full of people selling things they think we want. But I can’t be the only person that believes they need something more than they have. I can’t be the only person that wants to be something better than they already are. Or maybe I can? I’m not sure. I would definitely like to find out. I think there is a way to find the more that we are searching for. Is it more self-esteem? More education? Are we on the hunt to be healthier, stronger, more patient, better parents? I think the list could go on and on.
I am a research fanatic. When I am looking for something I research it to death before I decide and find what I want. There must be a way to share what I have learned through all the years of research. I want to find out what other people are searching for. Do I have answers to their questions? Maybe they have answers to mine. Or perhaps I will just be laughed at and ignored through this online venture. I guess only time will tell.